FIGHT OR FLIGHT WITH LIFE?
September 11th, 2006 by cma-jacob
Upcoming board exam? Nursing leakage problems? Different format and BON members? Pressures? Lovelife? A loved one who passed away? A depressed friend? A sick relative? A curfew? A lost trust? A lost cellphone? Betrayal of someone? Lack of money? What’s for tomorrow? But, here’s the real question… FIGHT OR FLIGHT? Well, it’s sympathetically true but honestly; are we going to fight or will simply fly away from these dreadful scenarios?
June 2006, a crippling fatigue lingered within me. Approaching our house, my heart sank when my lola had a heart attack and her glucose level went down to 25. Terrified at the thought that we’re going to loose her.
A month after if I’m not mistaken, the result of the june 2006 nursing licensure exam was posted…. Some of my friends failed. Before that, a news came out about the leakage.
July 2006, when I decided to take my review in Baguio; my mom accompanied me there to look for a place where I can stay for 6 months or so… but something came up, it’s about the divorce speculation… so my mom went to manila quickly. After 10 days, I went home with all my things because of a very traumatic experience there.
August 2006, NAHOLD UP AKO! Infront of our church, there was a man who pointed out a knife on my side and apparently left so fast with my cellphone (it was my aunt’s grad gift to me)… I got a scar on my right palm because of the knife. A week after that, the hospital called up to inform us that my brother was in the E.R because of an accident… His necklace was snatched. He fell; his head and pelvic bone bumped, and his motor fell on him… Very tragic isn’t it?
September 2006, a lovely newly born baby girl from our church died. 2 days after, my friend’s mom died also.
For a while, I sat down, closed my eyes and in an instant felt like being sucked into a dark cave.
The words, “Lord Help Me,” were constantly on my lips… I remembered one scenario when I was in , Morayta, and I was really confused…. I said, “Lord, please don’t let me cry… not here… they don’t have a Christian tape that can tone down my cry.” My heart was pounding so fast, my breathing was quick, my mouth was dry, and my system went sympathetically activated.
St. Thomas Square
But you know what? Not even for a second had God let me out of His sight. Never! He was there as I cried in the loneliness of my room during those painful days. He was there when horrified thoughts haunted me. He was there when fear entered my mind. He was there when my heart raged with distress. Though I had felt so down, the actual fact is that the Lord has never left me…
Our God never leaves us in the most difficult times of our lives. Perhaps, you have thought of fleeing from your present painful situation. But you know what? God is there with you, in you, every moment of everyday… He is where you are right now.
I thank God that during my dreadful moments, He enlarged my space and gave me room to mend and to recover.
Cast all your cares on Him because things concerning you matter to Him most.
Let’s give all our anxieties and cares to God and leave them there.
Friends, carry your worries in the right way. Don’t make a move to retrieve what you’ve already given to God. Leave all your burdens to Him.
With God, there are always new beginnings. We can stop all external pressures from overwhelming us by starting to strengthen our inner resources.
There is no way we could cope with the demands and stresses of life unless we come to Him and admit that we are so stubborn and accept the fact the we can do nothing without Him.
There was a time when I felt so betrayed and I told God, “Lord ang daya po.” The feeling of betrayal, false guilt, and self-condemnation; coupled with the propensity to churn things over and over again, can put a strain on our emotional health. But the time has come to close the cracks that allow these in our lives. Now is the time to entrust our cares to God, our Defense Counsel…. This time, I can bravely say that God is my vindicator and I know that I will always win! For as long as your heart is pure, you know that you’re not doing anything wrong and your mind is clean… God’s favor is with you.
Losing something or someone is not a negative thing. After the loss, I discovered something new that I never had before… And this is when the losing becomes a blessing.
Feeling so down? According to Jeremiah 31:3, “I will build you up again and you will be rebuilt.” Let’s claim this promise. God is pledging restoration and recovery for us.
How strange that when disaster strikes, we only long for a return of what was used to be… But not so with God, our Maker. He has better plans in mind… To return in our normal lives is not His goal. He makes new; He transforms. It is not only restoration but a desire of a new creation and a vision of a masterpiece.
Amidst of all the trials… it is because God loves me that He would rather allow these things to happen. But at the same time He promised me this: “My grace is all that you will need. My grace will be there for you, it will be enough to help you bear this affliction. And you will see that My power works best when you are weak than when you are strong.”
When I became so thrilled with God’s goodness in my life and realized that He’s using problems and downfalls to transform me, I found myself flowing with thanksgiving for How He has been directing the course of my life. And perhaps, I would still be willing to run the risk of getting hurt. For when I have tasted God’s goodness through my problems, nothing else will matter.
Emotionally loaded situations can be avoided! I Skip past news columns, I do movie marathon with my family, I relax, I dodge conversations about emotionally charged subject, I go to my happy places like: JCLAM, VICTORY, Starbucks Marquinton, Galleria; I’m enjoying helping other people, I keep myself busy, I do medical missions, I dance for God, I do aero and belly dancing, I listen to Christian music, I laugh so loud, I’m not lethargic anymore and my GCS is already perfect because I drink coffee most of the time (mocha frap and Sumatra brewed coffee) haha! Joke!, I think positively, I never fail to greet people a pleasant day and tell them I love them, I smile, I sing softly but surely, I’m pressing on, I read the BIBLE, I PRAY, and I FORGIVE…..
I thank the Lord that He values me for who I am and not for what I do. He accepted all my weaknesses… I now see that my worth does not depend on my abilities or successes… For as long as I have HIM and He has me, that’s enough.
God is the only Mighty One. No one else and nothing else. Problems are not giants, they are conquerable. God said, “Do not be afraid of them, I will fight for you.” Deuteronomy 3:22
I am cez, God’s princess by virtue of Jesus Christ’s death on the cross. My father carries me, His little girl, in His loving arms.
I am in Christ. I will not be devoured. God said, “I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands.” Isaiah 49:15.
Right now, I’m enjoying the life that God has given me together with my wonderful family. Physically, I’m so okei and spiritually on fire with God. A week after my bro’s confinement, he went abroad. He was hired as a chef in a big British cruise. My lola is going to celebrate her 78th birthday this coming September 12, very strong. I got enzo (my phone). My dad is planning to have a vacation here, to see us…I’m enjoying my review. I take things one day at a time. Pressured? Haha, I guess that’s quite normal, frightened? a-a, not anymore. Blessings are over flowing. I’m Happy and The Lord is with me always. Truly, God is really good (mapa problema man o hindi… He is still Good!)…..
“I praise You Lord. You are so good. Thank You for changing me. I just want You to be the Boss of my life and lead me to the right words as I testify how you’ve transformed me and now became Your princess, daughter, and Your real Masterpiece.”
When God gives a promise,
in faith believe it;
with hope, expect it;
in peace, wait patiently for it.
FIGHT OR FLIGHT?
JUST BELIEVE AND CLAIM!
Nothing more…nothing less…
-CEZ-